wildewonders:

Fucking thank you
s-kinnyloveforever:

Tomorrow. One year ago. The 17th of June 2012. I decided that I would try to take my own life. I have been through a lot of things in my short years. Everything I guess became too much, everything was dark all the time. I couldn’t find the good in anything. I went from this, happy, go lucky, out going, bubbly girl to this bundle of sadness and darkness. Everything was bad. I didn’t have any friends and that made it worse. And the people that told me they’d always be there for me left. I couldn’t talk to anyone. These scars may seem small and insignificant to you. But to me, they hold very bad memories. I still get the flashbacks in my head. All that blood, and my dads face as he walked in on me. My mums tears. I don’t know why I’m putting this all out there, seeing as unfortunately people from school like my blog. But just for tomorrow, don’t talk to me if I’m not close to you. I’m not going to be the most cheerful person in the world. And the friends I have now. I’m sorry I’ll probably be a downer. 17th of June. 2013. Maybe it will hold better memories, at least I’m not in that place anymore. I go there sometimes, it comforts me. It’s like, home. I’m used to it. But it’s not normal, I should be normal. I’m trying so hard to recover and I’m trying so hard to help you guys recover too. If you ever need anything, you know where my ask button is. 17/6/12 was a very hard day for me. 17/6/13 is going to be hard for me. 17/6/2067 is probably going to be a fucking hard day for me. So if you know me. Irl. Don’t come and talk to me about this post. Not tomorrow. Not ever.
strugguling